Inside Of Me was the fifth track from the Bedtime Stories CD, released in October 2004. “I will always have you, inside of me Even though you’re gone, Love still carries on. Love, inside of me.”
On June 17, my sister, brother-in-law, and my Uncle Seth, my mother’s baby brother, came to visit for ten days. I took some additional vacation days and showed them around parts of Colorado and Wyoming. Two days after their arrival I drove them to Colorado Springs, where we rode the Cog Railway train to the top of Pike’s Peak. 14,110 feet! The next day I took them to Estes Park and through the Rocky Mountain National Park, which ended up being one of the most beautiful places I had ever visited. On Saturday, June 21, the first day of summer, we departed for The Grand Tetons and Yellowstone National Park, with a scheduled stop in Dubois, Wyoming.
This particular trip was a milestone for me because it was the first time that I had ever roomed with my Uncle Seth and it was the first time that I got to know him. He and my Aunt Hena had led very private lives up until her death in July of 2007. After her death, Uncle Seth started spending more time with the family, and for the first time in my life, I was able to get to know him a little bit better. At 74 years old, Uncle Seth was still in excellent health. He was a real trooper during our long drives between Colorado and Wyoming. During the night, before we would shut off the lights to go to sleep, Uncle Seth and I had several heart-to-heart talks about our family and his relationship with his older sister, my mother. He said that he had lived with my mother and father while he was going to school and looking for a job, back in 1961. At the time, my mother was pregnant with me. He then told me about a beautiful photo that he had taken of my mother when she was three months pregnant with me. As he described the picture, I realized it was the photo that my sister had sent to me for my birthday, the year before. It was at that point that I understood my fascination with the picture. (See Nothing Really Matters.) I was in it.
BACK | TOC | NEXT
I can’t stop thinking of you
The things we used to do
The secrets we once shared
I’ll always find them there
In my memories
But this heartache isn’t going anywhere
In the public eye I act like I don’t care
When there’s no one watching me
I’m crying
I will always have you, inside of me
Even though you’re gone
Love still carries on
Love, inside of me
I keep a picture of you
Next to my bed at night
And when I wake up scared
I know I’ll find you there
Watching over me
When my world seems to crumble all around
And foolish people try to bring me down
I just think of your smiling face
And I’m flying
I will always have you, inside of me
Even though you’re gone
Love still carries on
Love, inside of me
You’ll always be inside of my heart
Inside of me
When my world seems to crumble all around
And foolish people try to bring me down
I just think of your smiling face
And I’m flying
I will always have you, inside of me
Even though you’re gone
Love still carries on
Love still carries on
I will always feel you
You’ll always be inside of my heart
I’ll always have you inside of me
I will always have you
