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April 13, 2010 | Dispelling Anger
I woke up recalling a dream where someone was trying to kill me. I didn’t feel threatened. However, it felt more like a test of courage. I believe that I was being asked to reveal the warrior inside.
Once I started my day I decided to wear Deb’s necklace during my remaining days on Cherokee land, and as I pulled out of the park, I must have counted at least 20 butterfly’s. They were everywhere. Transformation and transmutation were all around me.
My plans for the day were to drive up to the Blue Ridge Parkway and make my way north towards Virginia. Parts of the parkway were closed down, however, due to rock slides and road conditions brought on by the harsh winter. I had to drive 30 minutes south of Asheville and then head back into the mountains to get to the part of the parkway that was open.
As I was driving up highway 80 towards the parkway, three crows flew directly in front of my vehicle. I wasn’t aware of crow’s message at the time, so I became very guarded. I decided to proceed with caution.
I made it to the parkway only to discover that it closed. The road to Mt. Mitchell was open, however, and I decided to it would be nice to visit the tallest peak in the Eastern United States.
As I was driving up the parkway, the road became scary. The park service had not cleared all of the debris from the road, and there were branches and limbs everywhere. Then, this dark cloud covered the mountain, and I became very nervous. It was a sure sign that I needed to turn around.
I stopped and turned my truck around right in the middle of the parkway. Instead of making a three-point turn, it ended up being more like a six-point turn. I had to be extremely careful not to run my truck off the cliff. My heart was pounding. I got spooked.
I exited the parkway and made my way back onto highway 80 and headed west, into the mountains. I then took highways 19E, 194 and 221 to Banner Elk, Grandfather Mountain and finally Boone, North Carolina.
While driving through this part of the state I had flashbacks of making the drive with my parents and my youngest brother when I was just a child. I could remember my mother screaming, “Keep your eyes on the road, John!” every time my father would take his eyes off the road to look out at the scenery. Remembering my mother’s fear, I held my breath around every curve.
While playing the current song on my CD player and thinking about my visitors, I believe I felt one of them leave me at this point. I wasn’t sure if he went into the light, or returned to the Cherokee Indian Reservation, but I felt him go.
I arrived at Grandfather Mountain, but couldn’t afford the $15 entry fee, so I kept moving. I could still feel the presence of the other spirit, especially every time I passed one of the many churches on the highways.
I made it to Boone, North Carolina around 5:00 PM and pulled up behind a vehicle that had the following sticker on the back window.
I couldn’t have agreed more. I then got online and searched for a campground. I was at my next campsite and settled in for the night, within minutes.
Once I logged into my computer and began working on my journal, I looked up the shaman meaning for Crow.
Crow offers the following wisdom:
- Guardian of the place before existence
- Ability to move in space and time
- Honoring ancestors
- Ethics and Ethical behavior
- Carrier of souls from darkness into light
- Working without fear in darkness
- Guidance while working in shadow
- Moves freely in the void
- Understands all things related to ethics
- Shapeshifter – Copyright www.animalspirits.com
After reading about the crow, I knew it was time to help my visiting spirit dispel the anger and move from the earth plane, into the light.
The first thing I did was to repeat my daily meditation on the left. I closed my eyes and brought in the energies from the spirit and asked it to accept the healing message from Kabbalah. And then I proceeded to perform a small ceremony around a fire which I had created especially for the spirit.
I took pictures of the fire during the ceremony and at one point asked the spirit to reveal itself if it felt inclined.
Then I recalled a second Kabbalah meditation. I did this meditation while I also cleared my heart chakra, I reminded myself that my visitor was no different than every human being on the planet. We’ve all experienced anger and resentment in our lifetime. Its energy was no darker than ours. All it ever wanted was the freedom to experience the light and their God, as they felt it in their heart. After their liberty went away, and another God forced upon them, the anger and resentment developed.
“If you look around you will notice that the Universe is designed in a way which allows us to create whatever reality, faith, or path to enlightenment we choose. We all are given the free-will to experience our version of God. Some people prefer their path through Christ. Some people choose their path through Buddha. Some people choose Allah, and so on.
Some people experience God and create loving, caring, nurturing realities, while others experience God and create a destructive, oppressive, angry, fear-based realities. We’re all experiencing God on very different levels, in many different ways, all at the same time, collectively.
The purpose of this site is to teach and learn from others that we are all, each one of us, a unique piece in a very complicated and diverse puzzle. No one part of the puzzle is any more important or significant than the other, and the puzzle cannot be complete unless every person is present. Regardless of our age, gender, sexual preference, race, religion or spiritual practice, we all play a very important role in life on earth. Collectively, when brought together as one, we all complete a significant picture.”
It doesn’t matter how we make it to the light, just as long as we make it and don’t drag anyone else into darkness along the way. Every soul deserves peace, respect, and understanding.